Now its not that I havent every forgave anyone before, or never tried it, i have... plenty of times trust me. But recently someone hurt me pretty bad, extremely recently, today actually. And I used to be very very close to this person, closer than i was to almost anyone. If you know me, then you know I am a big fan of holding grudges. I am like Lilly from "How I Met Your Mother" when someone hurts me bad enough, then they become dead to me. I dont forgive for the big things usually. And I didnt think I would be able to forgive this person. However in the spirit of living my life fully and for me, which is what this whole endeavor is about, I have decided to try and forgive them. Move on, and leave it behind me. And i think i have succeeded. I am not over it, and not completely forgiven, but I am trying and so far it is working. I dont wish them pain or unhappiness... Im not exactly praying for Gold to fall from the sky into their lap, but at least I dont want them to rot in Hell, and hey, thats a start right?
p.s. yesterday my new thing was cleaning the stove... ha, yes I am that bad of a house keeper.
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