My room smells like sour milk...

Ah-ha! I dont know... anyway, like always, tried something new today.

I officially asked a guy out on a date. I have been on dates with guys of course, but I have never "officially" asked, its always been, "hey lets get together sometime" or "you like alcohol? I like alcohol!" I have never actually officially asked for a date. And today I did, well sort of. I did it through text message. Does that still count? It removes the fear of rejection, and the pain of having to ask in person and get shot down, but it also increases the chances of being shot down. Its much easier to say no to someone if you dont have to stare into their puppy dog eyes welling up with tears while you do it. Unless you're a cold, heartless bitch who gets their jollies from crushing peoples souls.

So, I asked, regardless of the method, I still asked. And as soon as I hit the send button on my phone I immediately wished Steve Jobs would get off his lazy ass and invent the unsend button. It was gone, out there in space on its way to the guys phone... at least back in the olden days if you sent a letter you could go mug the mailman and get it back before he delivered it, now everything is instant. You think something, and poof! Its sent. It seriously will one day get to the point where all we will have to do is think, "Man, I bet Janet looks hot naked..." and bam a second later Janet is reading a message from you that says, "send me a naked picture please." Anyway, off topic, not that the topic itself is all that fascinating... I sent the message, two minutes went by. Nothing. Ten minutes went by, nothing. Twenty-five went by, and nothing. We were texting back and forth before I had asked, and the moment I asked the texting stopped. Honestly, people just like to make me squirm. You ever get the feeling that God has a punching bag, and sometimes he likes to just tape a picture of you to it and go to town?

After a grueling, agonizing, undetermined amount of time I finally got a response to the question.

Let it burn...

What the new thing I tried tonight is... well, I cant say for a decent audience.

I will say this though, my life is changing rapidly, everyday without having to try there seems to be a new thing... Like this spring break I got in a car with my friend Amy, and we drove until we were sufficiently lost, we got a motel, went to the local bar, met a few people had some drinks, went back to our hotel room got drunk, trashed it, and the next day had a road trip back home and stopped at a casino on the way... I dont know why, but my life has changed more in the last couple of months than it has in the last, I dont know, couple of years...

Everyday is something pretty much new, and I love it... if you havent started your own, new adventure everyday, well I suggest you start...

Right now I am a little intoxicated while writing this, so it is taking awhile spell checking everything, but the reason I am intoxicated is because I tried something new today. every day. Just as you should do! Keep life interesting, after all the purpose of life is simply to live it, so start living kid.

Smile though your heart is breaking...

So yesterday the new thing of the day was to try and buy jeans that are outside of my comfort zone... this does not mean squeezing the crotch, well not really... usually i buy jeans that are a size or two big on me, just because they are more comfortable. But then I usually end up looking like M.C. Hammer's stylist dressed me, and I cant pull off that look. Not even Mr. Hammer could. So I bought jeans that actually fit. Hasah!

On Monday the new thing of the day was an irish mocha frappe, or something like that. Stacey and i did "brunch" at two o'clock on a monday. I also bought a few new books that I had never read, or even heard of, and usually i like to buy books i have at least heard of... Today, I am writing some slam poetry. I never considered it real poetry, I always thought of it as gangster wanna-be's who are on stage just talking loudly and fast. I saw the documentary, "louder than a bomb" today though, and I realized there is more to it than that. Great film by the way, i recommend you watch it! I have done other new things as well, one thing every day, but they are either boring or I dont even remember what they were...not that these new things are thrilling but at least i remember them, which is a shocker.

p.s. can someone please explain to me how what Wisconsin is doing right now is legal? I dont understand. I am very much so considering leaving this country to start my life...

Gin and juice.

Yesterday I had a party. It sucks being the host of a party. You cant have fun, you have to constantly be checking up and making sure everyone else is having a good time, and people are constantly asking you for things, it just sucks. But maybe thats just me, i may have a stick up my ass i dont know im still checking. Until i find it though i have to try and loosen up i guess. The party was fun(for other people) so thats good at least.

Tonight while drinking and watching some how i met your mother with some good friends, i decided the new thing of the day would be to try gin. I have never tried gin before, and let me tell ya, i dont think ill be trying it again. It tastes like melted crayons kind of... but hey, thats why im trying new things, to see what i like and what i dont.

A special shout out to Zinty. Probably the only one reading this blog ha, I love you zinty, your message helped me a lot! POINT!

Forgiveness

The new thing of the day... Forgiveness.

Now its not that I havent every forgave anyone before, or never tried it, i have... plenty of times trust me. But recently someone hurt me pretty bad, extremely recently, today actually. And I used to be very very close to this person, closer than i was to almost anyone. If you know me, then you know I am a big fan of holding grudges. I am like Lilly from "How I Met Your Mother" when someone hurts me bad enough, then they become dead to me. I dont forgive for the big things usually. And I didnt think I would be able to forgive this person. However in the spirit of living my life fully and for me, which is what this whole endeavor is about, I have decided to try and forgive them. Move on, and leave it behind me. And i think i have succeeded. I am not over it, and not completely forgiven, but I am trying and so far it is working. I dont wish them pain or unhappiness... Im not exactly praying for Gold to fall from the sky into their lap, but at least I dont want them to rot in Hell, and hey, thats a start right?

p.s. yesterday my new thing was cleaning the stove... ha, yes I am that bad of a house keeper.

Pate

Many people have told me the same thing. That life moves very, very fast. Its all over in a blink, and at the end you look back and wonder where the time went, what you did. Im going to take their word for it, because all of the people who told me this were on their deathbed. So keeping this in mind I've decided to do something. It might not seem monumental, but it will keep my life interesting, and at the end of it Ill be able to look back and know I did something.

I have decided that everyday I will do something new. It doesnt have to be crazy, I dont intend to go snowboarding, bungee jumping, scuba diving, or learn karate every day. But it must be something I have never tried before. It can be anything. For instance, today was my first official day of it. March 3, 2011- I tried pate.

It was at Home Bistro, on Halsted. I went with my Unlces and my friend Stacey. Not what I thought it would taste like. It reminded me of sausage. Quite honestly I thought pate was banned in the city because of some milarky about animal cruelty. It was tasty though. Im not endorsing animal cruelty, but I mean, if it helps make animals taste like that Im not going to pick up a picket sign either. Sorry. I talked to my uncles about family affairs, and Stacey drank wine. I dont know if I will eat pate again though. Not because of the way it tasted, or the animal cruelty thing, but because of the pronunciation of the word, and spelling of it. The whole thing sickens me.

Obviously, these new things are not going to be very exciting most of the time. Like tomorrow, most likely I will just try a new drink at starbucks (they wont all be food related...i hope) So i wont write a new one every day, Ill just recap at the end of the week for you, because I know you are all dying to know what I did this week.

Dennis Shepard's courtroom speech

my story below was written because i listened to the speech above...